Betrayers of Consciousness (pt 51)

Having introduced some notion of good and bad/evil in regards to our possession, or witness to consciousness in the last section, can we consider it further? If, as stated, a man holds no care for being either right nor wrong in his doings and/or so called knowing, is this tenable? But, lest I appear as one attempting to deal only in theory and completely apart from any practicality or utility, we might first have to consider how such notions of good and bad/evil so easily attach themselves to all considerations in matters of our consciousness.

Perhaps you do not accept this, nor think it so. But if the word “ignorance” (as the estate of not knowing) is presented, what is your reaction to it? Do you not already assign it some measure on what might be called a moral scale? Do you consider it entirely neutral? Or, as I am convinced (wrongly?) it holds some place of repugnance, of distaste, of a preferred not status that is assigned to some judgment of being “bad”?

Ignorance…”bad”. Knowledge…”good”?

Perhaps you see it as childish and simplistic. And I cannot argue it is not. In fact it could be argued that such introduction of notion of good and bad/evil has been introduced into us (even attaching itself to such considerations of ignorance and knowledge) so very subtly and at such early stages in the forming of our consciousness (or awareness of it) as we had no control. It came in as mother’s milk to us. Our “gods” fed us so. (Even as they were so fed)

Or, are you feral? (and tell me…is that “good” or “bad” to be identified so?)

Our broad assigning of metrics of good and bad/evil touches and taints most every (all?) consideration. All things fall under some judgment in eye so that even judgment itself is often described as being good or bad in its exercise. As in: “He showed bad judgment there…” or the like.

We may even, in the extreme, prefer to think of ourselves as “non-judgmental” or appreciate what we believe we see of it in others…and surely when we feel or sense as though we are “under it” our first instinct is escape. It speaks of a superiority, it speaks of a having of some position…over.

We might all be “very bad” in our judgments were we to not see how very comfortable we are in exercising it in every thing toward us, while making no account of how much it is despised in any exercise over ourselves. This is but another thing in which we may discover plain division(s) in our own self. A divided-ness; even about judging, and judgments. Another place testifying of our stuck-ness in some predicament.

Is happiness…a “good” thing…misery, suffering, and sadness bad? Happy might be the man who finds of himself he can neither find nor make escape from any bit of their experience. And find something there disclosed. But each would have to admit by some sort of knowing that for themselves and to themselves they only want to know the “happy”. That their balance is so terribly skewed to themselves; sense of right and wrong, good and evil, justice and injustice, true and false, light and dark, knowledge and ignorance, and yes, even life and death are all corrupted by this skewing. And that he holds to, or is witness of a consciousness in all corruption; constantly and incessantly deceiving, turning everything to fit his own advantage as it only fits to his vantage; that is, his perspective as from himself, to himself, and of himself. And that he is as surely locked into this to all impossibility for any man’s ability to escape. For to escape would mean to lose his own being as himself to himself, and who could do this?

An escape would have to be provided from somewhere else. Something else. Someone else. And of such nature that could convince a man as even against himself in some very real way…that he might trust another to “keep” his being. By their being. Even in their being.

But who has believed our report?

If this is not seen it is because the enigma is not seen in ignorance, caused by a deep defect not yet revealed.

The thing we look to to keep us intact to ourselves, as ourselves, for only ourselves…is also the very matter that keeps us locked in a prison of isolation.

Our ignorance is not being held against us (Forgive them Father, they know not what they do), but lying about it holds consequence.

If you were blind you would have no sin, but now that you say you see, your guilt remains.

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